Deprived Desire Drive

I made a song that has two versions: English and Japanese. I made the song on top of this piece. The song will be uploaded eventually. Each Japanese line has the corresponding English line. The English version is not directly translated but the emotion and meaning of the song is preserved as much as possible.

闇え座る
Here I sit in the dark
一人、コーヒーを飲んでいる
I'm alone drinking coffee

静寂の中にうるさいすぎ
In the midst of silence, there is so much noise

僕の心は不眠の市
My mind’s a city that never sleeps
忙しい、静かない、なぜ?
Ever so busy, why can’t it keep still?
風のキッスは唇のぬくみを取る
The warmth of my lips taken away by the kiss of the breeze

I freeze

やすい夜。まだ暑いmug
The night is calm. My mug’s still warm
思いの役者は話し合っている、
People in my head are talking about
やるべきと足りないもの。
Things I must do, things that I lack
ねがいの性質がなんだ？
What’s the nature of my desire?

生きたくない、死にたくない。
I don't want to live or die
笑えない、泣けない
I neither laugh nor cry
虚しい感じる、no drive
I am empty, I feel no drive I…
本当と偽りをいえらない
I can't say the truth or lie
いつも間違い
I'm oftentimes awry
有耶無耶、願いはなんだ？
I feel hazy. What's my desire?

なにを感じるか？
I don't know what I feel
感じるほうわからない
I don't know just how to feel
ただ呼吸。じっと座る
I just breathe. I sit still
温いない、心臓は病気だ
I lack warmth and my heart's ill

Lovesick。愛なし
Lovesick. Loveless.
感じょう的にsick
Emotionally sick

明日しごと、やるべきある
I work tomorrow, I have things to do

[interlude]

うるさい!　うるさいすご。
Quiet! So much noise

僕の心は不眠の市
My mind’s a city that never sleeps
忙しい、静かない、なぜ?
Ever so busy, why can’t it keep still
まだ冷たい。ぼくのmug空
I am still cold. My mug is empty
飲み干したみたい、
Seem I have drank all

My coffee

希望死んだ。さきになんだ？
My hope is dead. What lies ahead?
不要な欲求。考えている
Cravings unwanted. I am thinking about
こと抑制した、抑圧した
Things I suppressed. Things I repressed
ねがいの性質がなんだ？
What's the nature of my desire?

生きたくない、死にたくない。
I don't want to live or die
笑えない、泣けない
I neither laugh nor cry
虚しい感じる、no drive
I am empty, I feel no drive I…
本当と偽りをいえらない
I can't say the truth or lie
いつも間違い
I'm oftentimes awry
有耶無耶、願いはなんだ？
I feel hazy. What's my desire?

なにを感じるか？
I don't know what I feel
感じるほうわからない
I don't know just how to feel
ただ呼吸。じっと座る
I just breathe. I sit still
感情のない...
I am numb...

いきます
I'll be gone