Why am I prone to overthinking when I'm hurt or when I realise something is amiss?
Is it an evolutionary trait? Evolutionary traits don't have to efficient, they only must serve a purpose. Such traits arose out of need. For example, loneliness is some sort of a mechanism that prompts you to be with the herd; isolation is dangerous in the Stone Age (Kurzgesagt, 2019).
Are early humans also prone to overthinking? Perhaps. If they can think, they can overthink.
Speaking of purposes, a human overthinks because they need to be wary and know what to do next for defensive purposes.
All I know for certain. I might get exhausted from being defensive. One thing is for sure, exhaustion with defenselessness and a presence of a destructive intent nearby means doom or death... or even depression if there are no threats nearby.
Dog eat dog
It goes in my mind.
More on loneliness: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3Xv_g3g-mA
Saturday, April 27, 2019
Thursday, April 25, 2019
My Stupidity: Static on the Airwaves
I wonder what’s going on her mind
I wonder what’s going on behind
And what soon shall I find?
How long will I be kind?
ASPERNATOR:
I know you love her; I know you miss her
Shall your love be requited? I wonder
She is living in a yonder
Now you miss her and you suffer
AMATOR:
Listen to your heart; do it part by part
She is the one even if she’s apart
How long? Almost a decade from start
Still can’t forget her even in this art
ASPERNATOR:
Time is just a part, not the overall
Part of how strong your love is, as you fall
We might not know, to reach her, how we’ll call
Your recent letter was ignored; recall!
AMATOR:
Maybe she’s too busy, a time so hectic
A time for any suitors, hard to pick
Maybe her inbox is full, she can’t see
Any message of yours; buried deeply
ASPERNATOR:
Perhaps, it might be the case
But look at you and your lonely face
There’s a fact you can’t erase
There’s a chance you might not be her ace
AMATOR:
She’s too smart to be not blinded
By rich kids and handsome faces
To wait is what you intended
She goes to various places
ASPERNATOR:
Moreover, it seems that she has no time
For any man of romance
You see her instant messaging channels?
Unattended, not a chance
AMATOR:
Maybe you can wait longer
Or maybe she needs more time
Maybe you can reach out to her friends
We’ll make a plan and see how it ends
ASPERNATOR:
What kind of plan shall that be?
To pester you, her, and her?
Now who you are, they see
It seems she does not bother.
AMATOR:
You did the right thing to tell her
Of your love through a love letter
Maybe she got surprised by you
Or known it slowly, clue by clue
ASPERNATOR:
In you, she might be uninterested
So many things to be tested
Remember; she is not obligated
To tell you how she feels about you
AMATOR:
Dark thoughts and harsh truths crowd your thoughts
Please think well but not overthink
You still might have a chance, my friend
Please never go near to the brink
For now, the darkest thoughts must be managed
To self-improve, I must act; I’m challenged
(#)
I wonder what’s going on behind
And what soon shall I find?
How long will I be kind?
ASPERNATOR:
I know you love her; I know you miss her
Shall your love be requited? I wonder
She is living in a yonder
Now you miss her and you suffer
AMATOR:
Listen to your heart; do it part by part
She is the one even if she’s apart
How long? Almost a decade from start
Still can’t forget her even in this art
ASPERNATOR:
Time is just a part, not the overall
Part of how strong your love is, as you fall
We might not know, to reach her, how we’ll call
Your recent letter was ignored; recall!
AMATOR:
Maybe she’s too busy, a time so hectic
A time for any suitors, hard to pick
Maybe her inbox is full, she can’t see
Any message of yours; buried deeply
ASPERNATOR:
Perhaps, it might be the case
But look at you and your lonely face
There’s a fact you can’t erase
There’s a chance you might not be her ace
AMATOR:
She’s too smart to be not blinded
By rich kids and handsome faces
To wait is what you intended
She goes to various places
ASPERNATOR:
Moreover, it seems that she has no time
For any man of romance
You see her instant messaging channels?
Unattended, not a chance
AMATOR:
Maybe you can wait longer
Or maybe she needs more time
Maybe you can reach out to her friends
We’ll make a plan and see how it ends
ASPERNATOR:
What kind of plan shall that be?
To pester you, her, and her?
Now who you are, they see
It seems she does not bother.
AMATOR:
You did the right thing to tell her
Of your love through a love letter
Maybe she got surprised by you
Or known it slowly, clue by clue
ASPERNATOR:
In you, she might be uninterested
So many things to be tested
Remember; she is not obligated
To tell you how she feels about you
AMATOR:
Dark thoughts and harsh truths crowd your thoughts
Please think well but not overthink
You still might have a chance, my friend
Please never go near to the brink
For now, the darkest thoughts must be managed
To self-improve, I must act; I’m challenged
(#)
Saturday, May 14, 2016
About
Allucinator is a Latin word for the one who wanders in mind, or an idle dreamer. Its obvious derivative is the English word hallucination. It might be also spelled with either "l" or "ll", with or without beginning "h".
Due to sensitivity to the information around me, my allucinatio sometimes exacerbate my very sensitivity to dark thoughts and harsh reality; ending up with too much hate and depression, a feeling you can analogize to a Naraka (Buddhist folklore).
Somehow, I'm recovering and now finding my Zen.
Due to sensitivity to the information around me, my allucinatio sometimes exacerbate my very sensitivity to dark thoughts and harsh reality; ending up with too much hate and depression, a feeling you can analogize to a Naraka (Buddhist folklore).
Somehow, I'm recovering and now finding my Zen.
see dictionary entry of allucinator:http://latinlexicon.org/definition.php?p1=2002516
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